Rhythmic memory beats
The drum of childhood dreams
Beats my memory like a rhythmic
Bass. Losing a tooth, playing
Duck . . . Duck . . . GOOSE! It all
Comes back, making me yearn
For those days of innocence.
The laughter, tears, and fears
Of the hideous monster in the
Closet. Those days of imagination
Gone. When people had no race
Just a friendly and honest face.
So young, so alive. Seeing new
Things that were old to some
And relishing it like your last
Piece of gum. But being a Black
Child wasn’t all fun. There’s
A flip side to this bass and that
Is the memory of being called
Nigger to my face. Childhood
Dreams turned to nightmares
and the bass sound of my
Memory becomes too loud to
Bear. So I turn off my
Memories and shut my eyes
Waiting for the sun to rise.
Karla Dingle is a junior theater major
and a Diversions contributor.
Final Acceptance
Reality ends
candle’s fire
getting rid of you is like blowing
out a candle in my heart
but the wick still cinders... softly
burning on
so i’m still trying to recover from the
pain of
reality tapping me on the shoulder
i’d put it behind me and tried to
ignore what was obvious
what words had never said, and
didn’t have to
i tried to pretend, to create my fairy
tale around you
my personal fantasy ... my love
story
only to realize that i was in love
with what could not be
time kepi close quarters with my
soul
reminiscing your every move . . .
which all added up to nothing
i was like a horse running with
blinders on,
not seeing clearly what was in front
! of me -
because i pretended that what ex
isted on thfc side was of no
importance
i let you escape with murder,
only because i wanted to believe in
actions that were
unexplained
i cared for you deeper than your
personal understanding
and i’ll always believe that you took
it for a weakness
when the only weakness that truly
existed was your ability
to love and to become attached,
because you distanced
yourself from everyone in a subtle
effort to avoid the pain
the type of pain that comes with
truly caring for someone or
something but instead you walk
around with this superficial,
macho attitude that comes off as “I
DON'T GIVH A DAMN!"
but you do, you really do
and i feel sorry for you because i
could sense the
sensitivity in your eyes
but yet... i could not touch it
it was like trying to tap a well that
was dry
it always remained aloof and dis
tant
and it was as if the closer i came to
reaching it, the
further it would run away... almost
like a frightened child
i have always cared for you, and i
always will
i’d be a liar to say that i didn’t
it’s written in the way that i look at
you when they say
your name
but i’ll no longer be calling out to
you
because i know that you will not
come
i always knew that if you weren’t
perched on my post
that you were silting at someone
else’s window
and now . . . that window has a
name •
a friend of yours ... more being a
friend of mine
finally saw it fit to turn on the lights
for a girl who was
wandering blindly in the dark
and now iscc the light... i feel the
pain
I had a taste of the sun... and now
i feel the rain
theclouds rolled in... but someday
they'll be gone
and alone again... i’ll continue on
always shouting APRIL P!
hoping strong is what i’ll be
to sow a seed, someday i’ll reap
to find someone that i can keep
to call my own and never theirs
someone who loves ... and really
cares
but until that day does come
i must accept that we are done
a fantasy brought to an end
forever lost... but forever-friends
April Patrick U a sophomore interna
tional affairs and broadcasting major
and a Diversions contributor.
Dancer
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performed for five years with Scar
letandCrcam.compctedand placed
in several lalcnl shows, performed
in “Rain Some Fish, No Elephants,”
and the Lincoln Community Play
house. He won the Alvin Ailey
award lor performing arts al ihc
1993 Big Fight Conference on Black
Sludenl Government in February.
Wichcr will be working this sum
mer singing and dancing al Kansas
City’s World’s of Fun. He hopes to
launch a singing career in the near
future.
—- Kimberly Spurlock
James Smith, a graphics artist in the Office for Student
Involvement, says he loves his work for his creativity.
“My greatest pleasure Is to make what others have in their ^y courtesy of James smith
minds a reality, and to see the expressions on their faces when _cr,r. im a
they see the work,” he said. “I also like, for instance, using my own creativity to spruce up a
poster.”
' Smith said he had been “doodling” since he was four years old, but he didn’t become
serious about art until his junior year in high school. . . ... *.
Smith said he made “logos, posters, pictures, brochures, flyers,” for the Student Involve
ment office, and he has even done projects for the University Program Council, the Culture
Center and other organizations. Smith said he hoped to go into the private sector one day.
The drawing feature on this page is for Smrth’s illustrations class,* he said. It is a
hypothetical album cover for a musician friend of his, Redman, who is part of a rap group called
the “Hit Squad.”
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comer Kyle 1 Iotz.
The fi rst issu c, released last week,
is a pretty good read. In places, the
art is very good. In others, it is
cramped and the people just do not
look right. Still, it is a good effort.
“Cold Blooded" is the story of
vampire Tom Coker. Thestory starts
out with Tom traveling with his
friendJeromeT. Walsh. The details
of the story are taken from Jerome’s
journal. Although interesting, too
much attention is given to Jerome,
and not enough to Tom.
In addition, violence seems to
have been added for violence’s
sake. 'Phis should come as no sur
prise, however, because Northstar
Believes itself to be the new "Stan
dard in Shock Horror."
William J. Karma la a junior Engliah
major, an arta and entertainment re
porter, and a Dlvcralona contributor.
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PARTICIPANTS
Job Interviewing
Workshop
April 20-21, 1993
Administration
Building
Room 220
6-7 pm
Hor D'oeuvres
will be served
UNL Scarlets
Dance Team
Informational
Meeting
7:00 pm
Thursday, April 15
Nebraska City Union
Room will be posted.
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