Thursday, December 1, 1833 Dally Ncbrcskan On O -.jt V 7 - j V... - - bew GiiaaD9 M) dies i! no s r Pago 4 fr1 7 9 '-md "A'crp ymrface to the sun and you cannot see the shadow." . Helen Keller Why not despair? A university professor jumps 10 floors to His death. A disabled man sets fire to a chair in hi3 living room and while being carried from his burning home, says he did it because he didn't want to be alone anymore. Television brings nuclear holocaust in "living" color into 100 million living rooms. And the season one traditionally shared with family or friends causes feelings of hopelessness among the single, the elderly, the alone. Let's put politics aside awhile and talk about a real issue people and emotion. Henry David Thoreau wrote, "The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation." He knew that it wouldn't be easy being a person these days. To be honest, the despair finally caught up with me like' some bad thing that only happens to other peo ple. It just grabs ahold, like a strangled cat clinging to a tree limb. You have this feeling that it's never going to let' go. The biggest problem with despair is that you can't really talk about it. When friends ask what's wrong, all you can answer, in truth, b "I dont know." Despair Is 12.o one huge, collective pain that can only be described by all the stupid little thirds you can put in wordj. The ones ycu tell people about and all they ever say is, "You're de pressed about that?" The climax of despair comes that day when you ponder some abstract thought that you believe you must be crazy for even being able to think about. Like teeter-tottering on a thre shold. Standing in tomorrow, remem 'bering today and imagining what you have done with all the days in between and if they were meaningful. Not to say that emotional con sciousness isn't good, but listen guys, we gotta shake this despair. I went home for Thanksgiving and came back feeling desperate-less. Nothing like home to remind you of what is real in life. We got new living room furniture. It was the first time I had been able to get home to see it. And Dad is finally gain ing some weight I thought the swel ling in his face was from his dentures! My parakeet died (no honorable death) and Mom buried him in a new washcloth under the rose bushes in our front yard. My nephew, Chris topher, center of my love always and in many ways a director of my destiny, is an old man of 8 now, but still likes to sit on my hp. And that snow day was fantastic: We need more of them. It throws every body off and breaks up the monotony and regulation. Every minute isn't scheduled belonging to someone else. I feel good now. Had time to catch up. To wind down. To ask again, "Why net despair?" Why? Because people, not despair, are what life is all about and life is what we seek in one another. As we enter the last days of this semester and final exams, keep in mind that it's not easy being a person these days, but say "no" to despair. Deny access. Believe in yoursell Com fort yourself. Congratulate yourself. If you feel you need a time-out, take it If you feel you canx handle it alone, tnere V ;r.Qi - iP lv " I are several phecs you can go on cam- pus to get help. The Cciir.:::!": Center, Seaton 112111316,472-3131. University Health Center Mental Health Clinic, ICth and U streets Room 101,472-5125. . Educational. Psychology Clinic, Bancroft Hall ISO, 472-1152. Psychological Consultation Cen ter, Burnett Hell 111, 472-2351. . Campus ministries. A wonderful friend once wrote me a note, wishing me one of life's most warm and satisfying moments. Picture this: "Someone b making hot-buttered toast for you," he wrote. I think that's one of the greatest fccllrr.3 IVe had in a long time. Everything will be OK. Really. Human 6) Lju- .... V- II I TISA Lexers Chris Welsch's editorial concerning the power of money (Daily Nebraskan, Nov. 29) is tf ue enough, but his stabs at the American Telephone & Telegraph Co. are unjustified. Look at all the terrible things AT&T did for us: pumping billions of dollars every year into research, reasonable rates for local and long-distance cal ling, not to mention providing the best telephone system in the world. ' Overall, a simply dreadful corpora tion. So AT&T decided to go out and spend billions to change that After a long hard fight against the govern ment, AT&T achieved its goaL . And now we are left with" such a wonderful communications industry. Less money for investment and re search, a divided and inherently leas efficient phone system, not to mention that extra bonus: incredibly higher local rates in exchange for slightly lower long-distance calling. Yes, it is undeniably true: money talks. And it tells me that the breakup of AT&T was the stupidest bit of regu lation the: government has pushed through in recent history. " -., Kevin Terrell v t."; .. ; . junior - ;.' .-; - .,, German, political science